radiation day 22 of 35
I gained a bit of knowledge yesterday about how my choices affect a few of my symptoms. I know that some of my symptoms (nausea, becoming ill) were, to some degree a function of choosing to lie in bed all day. I know that I have choices which will influence how sick I will become each day., including how I choose to get sufficient calories and water, deal with my throat issues, etc. I am helpless and miserable, but maybe not QUITE as helpless and miserable as I was believing.
Today...much like yesterday; and everything (soreness, etc.) progresses slowly and surely. Another acorn.
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You are so close 22/35...just start the count down now! 13 more days until hallelujah time!
ReplyDeleteHey Steve, Your are way over half way. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and the finish line will happen. We are pulling for you. God bless, Jim and Julie
ReplyDeleteI have read through your bog and I want to say I am so sorry for your cancer.
ReplyDeleteI was taken by a comment you made yesterday. You said choices affect your symptoms. It is a simple statement we should all understand, but I wonder how much we truly feel this in our hearts or how to apply it to our lives. I do not have cancer, I have MS (for 13 years now) and I have spent many years processing it. I went through denial, anger and acceptance. With MS as my abilities diminish I must to repeat that same process, over and over and over. Everyday I pray for the slow changes to stop. I spend much of my time distracting my self from the poor condition of my body and my inability to walk with ease like everyone else seems to be able to do.
A few years ago I came to grips with the fact that Gods plan is for me to be here on earth for now. There must be a reason for that so I needed to look for how I can make a difference. People have always leaned on me for my strength. Years ago when I went to an MS support group (only went once) the weaker were drawn to me for support and there was little for me in the way of personal support for the pain I was feeling. So I had to be stronger alone. There are many people out there, who are will to give help and comfort to those who cry out, but those who need or hurt in silence are lost and sometimes forgotten in our world. I have tried to look for that and determine where I can make that difference.
I am a believer that you can lead people to a better place by example, by understanding their need and helping them to find it on their own. People will respect those they know are true at heart. They will look to follow and emulate that in their lives.
I now believe the choice I have to make everyday is to get up, be strong and move through my day. As I read your blog, it reminders me that we all have a purpose. I would encourage you to look beyond the cancer (in your own words) and look for how this is going to change your life as a fellow human here to serve. I cannot begin to understand what you are going through, my heart hurt to think about it. As Jim, said only 12 days to go. Remember God never gives us more than we can handle.
May God be with you my friend; I will look for your posts daily.
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